#in ooge multiple times

[wasitapossum]

Etho being horrible with directions is the funniest thing to me.

This man who’s been praised left and right for all his time on YouTube, who has created new mechanics for the game trillions of people play, who has an entire army of people willing to die for him,

can’t remember the path back to checkout in a convenience store.

[yellbees]

ough augh ouch orghhh ouuuuuaggghhhh

[masquayla-the-splendid]

Things I noticed about the music-realm of the fnaf fandom as of recently.

[From the person who did Paranormal Powerhouse]

My brain just fired an interesting set of neurons. I was thinking about how JT Music "remastered" some of his older fnaf songs, like Join us for a Bite, and Five Long Nights. Usually, JT Music never misses with his songs. Except for when he redoes them. Normally, I would describe the remakes of feeling too processed and the OGs more organic, but that's too vague for my point to get across.

I got a Reel on my feed the other day about the new Beetlejuice movie that showed images of behind the scenes pictures from the original movie, and the new one. One of the comments said that although the new movie was good, Beetlejuice's outfit from the original felt more authentic, and the new one felt too much like it was a costume. (I can see it in the hair most, imo.)

That's how I would describe this situation with JT Music. Heck, even just current Fnaf Fan songs in general.

I haven't heard any new fnaf songs that stuck out to me in a while. To me, the new ones just sound like someone just picked a cool synth and played 4 chords and went "OOG THE BEAR IS APPROACHING~" lmao.

Idk they just sound less...from the heart. Compare the "You might look at me-" "-you're not alone, Baby" part of the original Join us For a Bite, and the remake. They got rid of the huge chords the vocals did on "crazy," and the delivery doesn't sound like she's about to lose it. She just sings it and the autotune does the rest.

A number of other songwriters that made pretty good songs back then have fallen off too, I noticed.

Idk if it's because this is how these artists are making a living, so they gotta pump out content all the time. Tryhardninja has been uploading multiple music videos for songs from like, 2016. (They're good animations though.) It's all in the matter of taste though, I guess.

But it's a shame, because all the older songs that were fire, the writers ended being creeps, or have just been absent from the internet or the fandom for a while. Mandopony's songs felt like they came straight out of a musical. They made great use of harmonization, and painting a scene in your head. [I've never come across a song made by a brony that was mid.] That kind of style has yet to be replicated, because I don't want him returning anytime soon.

Idk what happened to Groundbreaking, other than he stopped making fnaf music specifically, but he was really good at writing character, and catchy instrumental breaks. The sounds he chose for each character song fit them very well. His style was very electronic and industrial.

Similar notes for Griffinilla, with the added bonus of the scenes in Stay Calm. Then he turned into Fandroid. His Freddy song is pretty good too. The lyrics are pretty generic, but I like the wacky instruments used. Not a fan of the Ballora song. I did recently hear about him being a groomer though. Can't have nothin in Hurricane.

Shameless plugin, that's why when I wrote Paranormal Powerhouse, (and Bolts4Brains) I was taking those aspects into account. I never hear vocals harmonize anymore, or singing in character, or silly voices in general. Those add texture, imo. The instruments I chose were very specific. I wanted it to sound mechanical and haunting, while keeping the overall lighthearted campy nature these games have, thus, the title of the song. (Totally has nothing to do with the level "Lava Powerhouse" from Sonic Spinball.) Even the drums are meant sound like clunky robotic movement.

The Genesis is capable of very harsh and edgy sounds, which would be perfect for the industrial side. It's capable of atmospheric sounds as well, ex. Ecco the Dolphin. It also shares a soundchip with arcade cabinets from at least mid 80s, so I tried to replicate instruments from certain arcade games, because FFP has an arcade. The Snes plugin was used for softer sounds the Genesis couldn't achieve the way I wanted, like the wonky piano.

I did add a sort of autotune to my vocals, but a real quality autotune plugin costs money, so I used Reaper's built in manual pitch correction. On top of that, I added a light chorus effect for the main melody, and a bit crush at that part where Phone Guy starts to break it down, and the animatronics provide a counter melody, leading up to Chica's solo.

Idk maybe I'm just not in the loop with the current music scape, and when I am, I just get really unlucky. It's hard to tell, because I hardly ever come across a fnaf fan that's also a music nerd. Like I'm just finding videos talking about the Watch Your 6 motif. Did we all like subconsciously know this and just decide to talk about it, or did the right people just start noticing it at the right time?

[wrothian]

im being crushed by 3 big math classes in the summer and having to get up at 4:30am for them. my head hurts and i had a dream last night about the elden ring dlc even though i havent finished the game yet.

im on the godfrey fight but im scared to keep going i need more game. the longer i sit on it the more i yearn for godwyn fia i will care for your baby. i loooooooooooooove him. also i beat malenia my one true gamer moment was dodging her waterfowl move in phase 2 And i guess not getting hit by the clones but mostly the waterfowl. black blade carried me. speaking of i really liked the maliketh fight i didnt even think he was still around but why is he my caelid grampy and also not grampy because grampy is still around. why would they force me to live the black blade hp drain in a scary boss fight where a man goes so fast. the parry was so cool but i could only rarely get it off. i scrum so loud

they need to stop making ashes so funny because sometimes im like well itd be fun to fight this alone but then i go no. i love hugues. ive been calling him hughes this whole time out of lack of care but to know he is pronounced more like Oog makes him literally the funniest guy of all time. i summoned him for gideon after multiple failed attempts and he just shoved him into a corner and continually smashed him over the head with a hammer and it hurt how bad i was laughing. GET HIS ASS

i cant believe i saw messages around gideon saying they cant believe he betrayed you when the whole time hes been rubbing his hands together like Heh... I suppose we can work together for the time being...............................my oomf got a little excited that you had the medallion and tried to kill you but dont look at me

the game is good i miss mohg

[domoz]

i think my favorite hyper specific genre of comment is when people say they really like my depiction of izuku in concerned citizen...... im like. thanks. gave him depression

[mx-mind]

I love watching videos on the downfall of Bendy and the Ink Machine and hearing about how the games were full of missed opportunities and how the developers mismanaged everything and the company is dying 💖💖💖💖

[blizzardz]

So i ended up reblogging again but

🥺

Well. I'm adding that to my TCT playlist

[dungeonqueering]

The Tragedy of Tiphareth and Nureyev.

Third post in a row bay beee

Too bad this one's sad.

During the second arc of this campaign, when the players were still trying to find special magic items to let them pop the magic bubble they'd lived their entire lives under.

It turned out that one of them was the price (a tiara) for winning a race. So first they had to secure a sponsor (They got fantasy Budweiser) to basically give them a spot in the race.

Plot conveniently, they needed 3 people. We have 3 players. They already had a driver, too!

His name was Tempest. I had already picked his personality out, and then realized I had basically made an Aasimar version of Peter Nureyev from The Penumbra podcast's Juno Steele and the _________ line of stories.

That image stuck with me, as you'll see. I even did my best to do his voice.

So, the day before the race... Tempest, who had already been flirty towards Tiph, the Paladin, asked him on a date. Tiph blue-screened for a minute, and had to go call his older sister on a stone of far speech to say like "Hey what do I do if I like a boy and a boy likes me and he asks me on a date and I want to go?"

So their date mostly consisted of Tempest doing cool driving tricks, and claiming to be from outside the bubble, but then laughing about it. They had a cliffside picnic, and they shared a brief kiss before Tempest ominously insisted that "No matter what happens after the race tomorrow, all of this was real. These feelings, these moments, that kiss."

I should note at this point that I had NO IDEA where I was going with this character at this point, just that I knew he would be tied to the main plot.

So they do some cool whacky racers stuff, and win the tiara. Tempest takes it, and dives off a cliff. When they look after him, they see a portal close, and nothing else.

BUT dun dun dun, turns out the tiara he stole was a fake that they bring to the physical race. The real one is back in a vault for safekeeping, specifically to keep ppl from stealing it like this.

So they go to the vault, and find a note that just says "I know it was a fake" along with the real tiara. Which means he intentionally stole the fake. Why????

SO during the next arc, it turns out that Tiph's family has some dealings with these artifacts. That his family is trying to stop the party from collecting them, and they have 2 out of 3 now. The track the third to an auction house. It had been sold. Who else could be there investigating but Tempest. They ask him, "Like, what the fuck?" And he basically says "Tempest? Never heard of him. My name's Defiance." And he grins and I ended the session.

Next session, while Tiph was busy losing all his trust for everyone and everything and blue-screening, The Warlock cast Suggestion and basically made Tempest/Defiance leave for the rest of the arc.

They track down the item, it turns out Tiph's family are drug dealers and popping the bubble will interfere with their business plan. See, they have a deal with someone on the outside. They basically push a cart full of supplies through every now and then. No sapient life can go through, but cart's full of Fantasy Meth can.

So Tiph doesn't hardly trust ANYONE now. But then Tempest/Defiance shows up. He says that he was working for Tiph's family to help the party. He says they won't believe him without proof of what he has to say next. So they pop the bubble and, at Tempest/Defiance's word, go to a town further from home than they've ever been.

They are looking for a book, one that doesn't exist inside the bubble. A history test. A specific history text. On the way, Tiph and Tempest have a moment. Tiph basically says "Look, I really liked you, and I've never liked anyone like that. So for you to go and just disappear, to not tell me what's going on... I can't trust you. I don't even know your real name."

And that's when Tempest just sighs and says "Nureyev. Peter Nureyev."

Tiph laughs and says "That's a horrible name."

Nureyev laughs and says "I know, that's how you know I'm telling the truth."

So they go to a library, kill some devils, and find this 400 year old history book. It's written by....... Peter Nureyev. And it has an illustration of the four of them, labeled something like "The heroes who formed the bubble"

Dun dun dun....

SO, Nureyev is like "OK, now that you know that you have been to the past, and that I met you then, and that I am 400 years old, I really have no more secret. I will answer all your questions."

Of course, this absolutelt SHATTERED what little trust Tiph had left. He was a very broken man for a while. The only details important from this next part are that

1. Tiph and Nureyev had been at least sort of dating when they met before, the degree to which they were together was not clear.

2. Nureyev had just wanted one more day with Tiph, because he knew he wouldn't likely get more. That's why he was shady about it at first. It was the best explanation I could give since I didn't really plan at all, I just opened my mouth and plot came out.

So the three of them travel back in time. They meet young!Nureyev. Unlime his future persona, he is a timid priest of Torm. He is a huge need, and he specializes in monster lore. He's awkward and shy and, if I may say so, very cute.

Tiph and him do grow closer. It takes Nureyev literally six months to work up the courage to ask Tiph on a date. That went well, but I OOG ruined it by making a small joke and then ugly laughing about it for 10 minutes (which I hated.)

They go through a lot together. About a year in, when Nureyev has already fallen painfully in love with Tiph (I'm skipping a lot here), He finds out that Tiph is from the future. They argue just a little bit, but ultimately, Nureyev is fine with it until the moment Tiph says something about how they'll never work out because of it. He knows that Nureyev has to spend the next 400 years doing spy shit, and becoming a very very different person. And he's right. So Nureyev reluctantly leaves. They continue to work together for 4 years, until they form the bubble and accomplish all their goals in the past (Including acquiring the Book of Exalted Deeds). They go back to the present.

It had been about 15 minutes for Old!Nureyev. And he looked like he hurt so much more. He just simply said "I'm glad you're back." But the pain, the love, the longing in his eyes was clear.

So they had two weeks before the final attack on the Lich's tower. Amidst preparations, which Nureyev was gone for half of since he had to go rally the armies, Tiph and Nureyev finally talked. It was the night before the assault. Nureyev wanted to ask, one more time, if it could ever work between them.

Tiph assured him that it could not. Nureyev nodded, and switched to talking about tactics and such.

It's going to be really tough because in one of the games, which I will eventually detail the rules for, you see multiple copies of "The person you love most".

For Tiph, that's probably his older sister.

For Nureyev.... His family has all been gone for centuries. Tiph is the only person alive he loves at all.

And at this point, I'm wondering if it's better to complete the tragic arc and kill Nureyev in the final session, or if he really can go back to his quiet coastal home town, and just be a priest and a nerd for monsters again. The party has known him both when he was too afraid to lift a sword, and when he was prepared to ramp a fantasycar off a rock to do a sick flip in the air. They knew him when he shook at the idea of seeing a Beholder in person, and at a time when he isn't even flyinching in front of a lich.

I guess the question is... Does Nureyev even know who he is anymore?

[marshmarlowee]

I don’t post my face much on tumblr, but gotdamn I really wanted to share my look from this weekends LARP event! It was a one day Apocalypse event and I had so much fun!

This character is Rusty, real name Logan Zears. They’re a carnie with the Séance Family’s Carnival of Fools, hence the dramatic stage makeup! (You can’t really see the eye makeup but the overlined lips were meant to be kind of clowny) Rusty performs a mix of daredevil and magic tricks for their act, and the act is always evolving and changing.

I went into this mostly expecting to just goof around as a weird character and try to recruit people into the carnival, and I got some of the best roleplay of my life. Rusty had a great time and made a lot of friends, but things got tough. People died, and Rusty died and had to be resuscitated. Rusty formed a strong friendship and what might be a young romance with Wesley, an ex-domer militant who two years ago had his cybernetic pieces replaced with full human parts, courtesy of local cannibal medics and friends. Near the end of the night, Wesley told Rusty that he decided to join the carnival to act as security. Rusty and Wesley were quickly very protective of each other. Wesley, with his military training and heavy weaponry was competent on the battlefield, but Rusty was never far behind with their little trick shot pistol. Rusty got hurt a lot and easily. Both Wesley and their close friend Jackie had to stitch them up multiple times. It often was while Wesley was fixing Rusty’s wounds that they got to know each other. Rusty got increasingly frustrated with how useless they felt. They weren’t really combat trained, and they couldn’t heal. She felt useless and like a burden on the battlefield. More than once they stuck by Wesley’s side after he told them to retreat, and more than once Wesley had to drag them back to safety after that ended poorly. Wesley promised to help Rusty learn to be more sturdy once he joined the carnival.

The idea of romance came up fairly early in the day when Wesley returned from a mission and told them that Xena, a carnie from a different carnival who Rusty and her friend Jackie immediately befriended, had asked if Rusty and Wesley were romantically involved. Rusty awkwardly told him that they had just met him that day, but that he was lovely. After an uncomfortable moment of silence, Rusty declared they she was going to get her makeup and walked away. Earlier that day, Rusty had been teasing their friend Jackie over describing a man named Weasel as “tall, dark, and handsome.” It turned out that Weasels real name was Wesley, and immediately Rusty declared that the other Wesley was superior. It began as a joke, but Rusty got closer to Wesley. Due to oog reasons for trail capacity, Wesley got left behind a lot of times when Rusty was going out on a mission because the group was too large. When it happened a second time, Rusty was disappointed but she decided to make it a little better by stealing Wesley’s hat, putting her own hat on him, and running into the woods. They kept trading hats over the course of the day, and by the end they were permanently wearing each other’s hats. Before heading into battle at night, Wesley tied his bandana around Rusty’s arm so he would recognize them in the dark. It was an oddly intimate moment for both of them.

At one point, Rusty ran into combat without Wesley because their friend Clooney was in danger. Rusty didn’t expect the onslaught that occurred, and was cornered and killed. They were dragged into the pigpen (the tent owned by Colonel Stirling who called it that because it held his Gatling gun “the pig”) and lay dead for several minutes. Someone Rusty didn’t know revived them, but they wandered around kind of in a daze for a while afterwards. She was understandably very unsettled by having been dead. Wesley was back by that time, and had helped fend off the enemies that had killed Rusty. Wesley healed Rusty back to their full health after they were revived. Afterwards, Rusty told Wesley her real name and walked away, a little uncomfortable with the emotional vulnerability. Later in the evening, while gathering bullets from the now cleared combat zone, Wesley told Rusty his designation from when he was in the dome. He told her about his life in the dome, which was traumatic for him. He told them about how when he was first free of the dome and free of his cybernetics, his friends had named him Wesley, his own name for his new life. He told her that he was still learning how to be a person, and that he told her his name because he was learning to trust and he trusted her.

On a less emotionally intense note, Colonel Stirling, the high energy beer chugging red blooded patriot, accidentally shot his own dick off and had a rousing round of applause when he used magic to grow it back. He then proceeded to shoot himself in the foot while demonstrating to a kid how he shot his dick off in the first place.

[softgosip]

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[niteshade925]

thoughts on the new video

Just saw the video.

My first thoughts were “wow the series is definitely ending very soon”.  I mean, that book-end description, Jeff wanting people (the audience?  us?) to stop watching, the song “Past Lives” with its lyrics, Corenthal talking about putting some important plan in motion, "the world as we know it” ending, HABIT looking panicked and running off......hmm.  (personally I’ll probably be a little sad if the series is indeed ending or if this video is the last, but hey it’s been 8 years.  The guys kept this up for 8 years.  It’s been good.  I’m deeply thankful.)

Aside from that, some things I noticed and thoughts:

So Corenthal is indeed hiding in the Candleverse, which seems to be some place that neither Slendy nor HABIT could reach or influence.  Are the Jeff and Evan there the ones from the main iteration we’ve been seeing?  So I guess I am right and the candle world is some sort of “backstage” that the characters go to whenever they die “onstage” in the EMH world?

And on that “theater” analogy I’ve been thinking about....according to Night Mind, HABIT is the in-universe director and editor of the channel.  So in this analogy he would be the playwright and stage director of this EMH play, the play that ends in tragedy over and over again (HABIT even talked about “final act” in some videos prior) with unwilling characters, Vinny, Jeff, and Evan.  Corenthal would be the guy trying to end this cycling tragedy by enacting some sort of plan to pull the guys out of HABIT���s play, right as the play has stalled with only Vinny left “onstage” in the current production(if he’s still in the EMH world at all, that is).

The theater analogy seems to hold, but it does conflict with Nick’s theory because......we see HABIT panicked here.  Why would he be showing us this if he senses he’s in trouble?  Are we the audience the ones giving him power then? (all artists/creators need an audience?)  Is that why Vinny and Jeff tried to tell us to stop watching?  And something I’ve been wondering for some time now.......

Who was the cameraman in those times when HABIT seems to be alone?  Who’s filming his monologues?  I don’t think the camera symbolize the audience because we are not there.  We are watching the final product, the videos.  So who was filming?

(If my theater analogy is true, then the ending could very well be this video.  Personally I’m hoping for a little more of a closure than this)

The section of the song “Lost Love” that appeared in the video has the following lyrics:  

Past lives couldn't ever hold me down

Lost love is sweeter when it's finally found

I've got the strangest feeling 

This isn't our first time around

Past lives couldn't ever come between us

Some time the dreamers finally wake up

Don't wake me I'm not dreaming

Don't wake me I'm not dreaming 

So judging by the lyrics, the gist of the Iteration theory has been 100% confirmed now.  It also seems to be hinting towards a “power of friendship” ending.  (not saying that sort of ending is bad or anything, just that it feels like that kind of ending).

My other speculation on the ending is the “meta ending” (i.e. “this was all a dream”).  The song lyrics does kind of support this speculation with the whole “dreams” thing.  There’s also the bit from Princeton Tapes (Friends & Gaming bit) where the characters were playing DnD, a roleplaying tabletop game.  And as we can see from the creators’ OOG channels, they do play DnD with each other IRL........

I’ve seen multiple people say that HABIT’s monologue “made no sense”, or that HABIT seems to have gone off the deep end.  Personally I just feel like he sensed the fun is ending.  Maybe it’s even a “wait wait I’m actually fictional” moment as he realized what Corenthal’s plan means for him.

*******AND RIGHT WHILE I’M STILL TYPING HERE A NEW VIDEO WENT UP**********

Thoughts will be continued in another post with the information from the video today (The day the world ended).

[raccoon-in-a-dumpster]

i can give more requests if you don’t mind me coming into your inbox multiple times,,,

oog,, that wouldbbe cool u can i wouldn't mind at all

[delcat177]

@mycupofstars made me a pet mug full of hot vanilla after the ep and I am more Stabilized

I went back through both episodes and really studied Khonsu's design and there is a lot--there is a lot there, man, there is a lot there.

--The Corporal always appears behind me/hosts, right behind the ear, I only really see him while he's been stripped to his base form of bird'n'spine or else when he's inhabiting and warping new hosts

--I see the Corporal very little, he is in relatively few of my dreams considering his effect on me, owing largely to that trauma source being...further away now

--But when I see him it is not an ordinary bird head. It is exaggerated. It is Wrong. It has sickening cartoon rolling eyes. Sometimes there are ants on them.

----The Wrongness is communicated VERY well in Khonsu's appearance, the strength of the beak, the disproportionate sockets, the asymmetry. When I tried to draw the Corporal, the beak was so big. So damned big.

--I am maintaining an air of general nausea in relation to Khonsu in an almost protective way.

--I think I started retching because my body was grasping for a response to define if I was awake or not, because it was a rush of relief and every time my stomach turns it's like "yeah suck it oog". I may just be riding a lot of adrenaline and hot milk, but it wouldn't be the first time I've had a visceral reaction like this. It's just been a long time.

--I can't currently discuss certain things because of plot reasons, but the cornsilk-strands down the back of the skull just aren't FAIR.

--I can't currently discuss certain things because of spoiler reasons, but OH, IS THAT HIS DEAL? IS THIS WHAT KHONSU DOES? IS IT REALLY? HUH. HUH.

--One of the first notes on the Corporal, when he was under better control, was that he was the anxiety one gets on an old elevator between it stopping and the door opening, that pause when you're afraid it might not and you would be in there alone.

--This was inspired by a particular elevator at my community college, and by multiple dreams of him inhabiting them, in one case throwing someone down a shaft.

--Fucking. Elevators.

--FUCKING, MIRRORED ELEVATORS.

--running thru endless corridors and u can't get out like if u crey every time 8')

What makes it okay:

--Khonsu TOL.

--Khonsu STRONG.

--Khonsu STABLE.

There is so much smallness and shrinking and bitter, cowardly malice to the Corporal. It doesn't surprise me in hindsight. He uses flouncy, fancy words and tones that don't make sense but are syrup-sweet and crushing, and has since his first goddamned appearance, nightmare for one starring me.

(God I was still using green gel pens. I was too young to be that not okay.)

So like, Khonsu being this self-assured, purposeful, steady-spoken sonuvabitch is...really helping, honestly. It's really helping.

Also I would probably bang that if I didn't have a tailored response of absolute revulsion, which I think marks the first time I've actually understood people who don't love the monster. And I still love this monster.

God, what a sad and lonely world it is to be a monster.

I am gonna, like, go to bed before I psych myself into being afraid to go to sleep, but just wanted to say it's okay, it's okay, it's okay.

We deal with a little piece every day.

Pokémon first tho

Pokémon and tea

Jesus Jesus Christ Jesus God fuck fuck God Jesus fuck no oh God Jesus fuck //actual retching// God //laugh crying// Jesus Mary and Joseph oh God

F u c k

[conflictedrabbit]

2* the AvPD

Conversation w/ my friend I mentioned earlier. With their name / identifying characteristics edited out and some chopping here and there. 

___: 

I made a post abt avod once tho and it got like A few rbs and I thought "if this isn't irony idk what is" Trje

66ccff: ekjal;kdjd;

___: 

me: why do, so many avoidants want to pay for being alive avpd Tumblr: hm . I relate

66ccff: ekleja;ejdl;k

___: me: I'm glad to know people relate but are we fucking ok

66ccff: 

LOL i mean mood tbh

___: HINESTLT like I noticed i do it cuz of you NFBNSBDKSBDKSS

66ccff: though do you mean pay as in like. pay the medical system or pay as in guilt

___: Guilt

66ccff: 

kejk;ldj;L yes ok that is definitely me me: i breathed 5 gallons of air within 3 hours i am so sorry world

___:

me: [realizes it's not entirely religious trauma and also probably just Guilt over taking up space and needing to help ppl otherwise Why Live?} 

Oh god me

66ccff: (this is not even ironic i get like this multiple times a week)

___: 

hdjhdjsd I've been having a bad ep lately actually and like I think I failed to look 5-6 people in the eyes today CUZ IM JUST [WALKS AROHND] WOW . TERRIBLE

66ccff: 

omg it's ok i nearly cried in class today b/c i didn't have a good eng translation for this jp sentence

i was like.... no.... don't....

i stabilized cuz the teacher went on a tangent for a second but like forcing myself to look in his eyes and act normal was so hard i looked away so many times i wa slike. oog my god. end m i love it when walking around where there's other people makes me really nervous and irritable agoraphobia is great!

___: 

GOD yea It's so awkward for me I'm fine if I have a safe person or I'm walking to class but like

66ccff: i came back from class today and took a 6 hr nap cuz of my shame and agoraphobia

___: 

Rip Wish I could do that...

66ccff: well i haven't done my homework so

___: 

I just. Cry a lot NDKSJDJDNSKDNS rip me: I'm strong Me: spent the last 5 days like crying over nothing

66ccff: 

dkjle;ajd i mean... i used to cry but then i got mad at myself for crying so now i just Repress (tm) and sleep and then. the joke is that sometimes it doesn't work self harms... oops... that didn't work either better nap again

___: 

zz Pillows keep u safe Idk what I've been doing lately but I thought I was getting better til I realized I was like Abstaining from feeding myself BFBJSBFSJJFD

66ccff: o h my god

___: 

And I was like "oh fuck I'm a terrible person bc someone told me I should eat and j Didn't Do It I Failed Them"

66ccff: 

ahahahahaahahaha i thought i was getting better too but it was actually because i was just forcing myself to study to give myself an illusion of doing my part and then i went to school and my actual performance is like bad b/c i avoid so many activities that would make me better and i just

___: samd

66ccff: 

Wow i want to die!

___: 

hdjsjdjs

I think I only managed to eat cuz my brother was expecting me to

66ccff: tavpdfw you want to be punished constantly so you don't have to have anxiety about existing

___: 

Cuz he bought me dinner like 6 hours ago but I didn't touch it til now BFJDJD MEEEEE

66ccff: dkja;eljd;

___: 

GOD me: ah I feel good today Me like 3 hours later: oh my God I shouldn't feel good abt myself that's so Selfish ? I am trash

66ccff: oh Mood

___: Avpd solidarity

66ccff: 

honestly i love my environmental soicology class but liek it talks about how we're all consuming and putting things back into the environment

___: Idk how I manage to have avpd and __pd but that's how it is on ths bitch of an earth

66ccff: and i was literally contemplating if death was the only way to take myself out from the cycle

___: 

Me Bhhjsfjd

66ccff: 

i was like holy shit. it's not just consumption i forgot i also put bad gases into the air with everything i breathe i am Bad

___: 

All day today I was hearing abt what happened in Vegas and we were like. Talking in my apologetics class abt the Nature of Evil

66ccff: the true environmentalist take is death

___: And I was just thinking "why must I, exist if all I am is bad"

66ccff: 

oh my god same! i looked over my abt page and i was like this looks fake tumblerina

___: 

apologetics: so mankind is basically evil Me: great! I'll die so there's less evil in the world

66ccff: 

me ME

MEMEMMEMEMEMMEMEMEMEME

___: HHDHSBDJSHD

66ccff: 

sometimes i have fantasies of like going backwards and apologizing to everyone i've ever talked to and to everyone who ever had to work to produce what i've consumed

___: 

M. E

m

66ccff: 

and then hoping that they forget about me and then like disappearing forever i jsut can't see how some people can be like oh yeah factories in china and mexico earn less than 2 dollars an hour to make our stuff and not jus twant to kill themselves

___: 

I'm just pathetic and compulsive if I feel bad about stuff I apologize til like 2 weeks after God. Yea

66ccff: 

the joke is that people hate if you overapologize so you jsut damned if you do damned if you dont :upside_down:

___:

me: uh sorry for being sad People: don't apologize for that Me: Avpd:.  They are mad that I am apologizing also that I am sad Hhhfjjejd

Me: 

ME WKJD;LKD "can you stop saying sorry" "sorry"

___: 

me: oh God I'm so miserable Someone: oh im sorry Me: I wish I could accept this but Pity is too much for a lowly worm like me

66ccff: "what did i just say"

___: MMSNDNBHHHHHHGGGGG

66ccff: 

:smile: :gun:

MOOD

___: avpd feel when you don't deserve to be pitied ?

66ccff: pity is too much kindness ___: 

God yea

LIKE probably just a conflicted feel but I prefer ppl being active than pitying me but then I'm like

"that's selfish I don't deserve that ?"

66ccff: 

someone tells you to watch where you're going feel like you're unable to go outside for the rest of the day

___: 

m. mebdbdhdhdjs

66ccff: oh yeah the joke is that i want people to like. be kind to me but also i don't

___: hell brain

66ccff: so i can't say what i want

___: GGG YEAH

66ccff: 

be kind to me except don't because i'll feel invalid either way so maybe just don't talk to me >feels worse anyway

___: 

Hhhhhhhhhhh me Me: talk to me ? But I don't know what to talk abt ? But I am also not good enough for pity you could just sit there maybe But then the presence of another person will overwhlem me and I'll go cry again/s

66ccff: feel free to entertain yourself, and forget about me, ___: 

Mebdndmdkskdjsja god [looks at all cluster c disorders] you are all bitches and I hate tou

66ccff: 

tavpdfw u gotta depersonalize to make it through the day of talking to other people and acting like ur a normal human bean MOOD

___: GOD yea

66ccff: 

i have a question though if im depersonalizing why do i still feel terrible even if i feel ilke im fake smh

___: God me

66ccff: 

me: i'm not real so heres me acting like i am chill and cool person that is interesting maybe or maybe not me, inside: this sucks and i hate this but im not real so it shouldnt affect me but damn i hate this when u feel separate from your auto-pilot but you still experience all the shame you would without it :thinking: avpd is stupid and contradictory and evolutionarily useless

___: 

__pd isnkind of the same but like if you manage it well you can get stuff done but you still breakdown over the TINIEST DETAIL I hate it And I waste more time thinking abt what I'm gonna do and not actully DOING MT SHIT

66ccff: cripes

___: LIKE A NORMAL PERSON

66ccff:

me in high school UGH i'm ahving that problem right now dude in high school i used to just waste my days reading manga and thnking i should do my homeworka

___: 

me: I'll spend this hour scheduling [2hours later] Me: [stressed nbdjdjjsjdjsjdks

66ccff: and then i'd like. start at 10pm and fuck myself over ___: rip 66ccff: have a crying session at 4am every time an essay is due the next day ___: I actually didn't do one of my assignments tonight 66ccff: bad coping habits ___: Rip me I got discouraged over something lame JFJSNFKSNFD 66ccff: oh mood

___:

relationship issues: occur Me: well, I can't, do anything ever again

66ccff: 

i shouldn't even be discouraged abt my classes bc i'm here to learn and i'm just like. i know nothing i deserve to die kejd;kakejd friend, disagrees with you on something you feel unsure about: WELL I GUESS I AM BAD AND THEY HATE ME NOW time to ghost them

___: 

me: [perceives someone not caring for me] me: and Now...what is Mine Purpose...what do I live for...my Friends....have all abandoned m MEEEEEE avpd sounds super dramatic when you separate it from yourself but like In the moment I'm always just [jdut starts Fucking Crying

66ccff: 

i just want to manage to some kind of social work, give my wealth to some impoverished family, and then kms before 30

yeah my therapists in the past are like why... so soon

___: Jfjdjfjdf 66ccff: and i'm just like "why not i need to minimize all my ills on the world and also on the emotions of my family" ___: That reminds me of like. One of my mutuals talking abt how early he sleeps and he was just 66ccff: this is the optimal time look my life plan

___: 

"why be awake longer than necessary"

Hdhdhfjsjfdjdjdband. I was just . Me

66ccff:

because you hate yourself too much sleep :^)

___: 

God yea That's true. Me rn

I should've been asleep like an hour ago but [plays secret of Mana and then mopes]

66ccff:

dude i used to have bouts of insomnia b4 i got drugs that knock me out (and help me w/ anxiety) like.... i would lay awake and every second of being awake was just making the situation worse

___: I feel like I should get meds to balance out my bipolar eps but

66ccff: but then i couldn't sleep anyway so it was a damned situation ___: my parents r so anti meds 66ccff: rrghbh

___: 

also like Internalized ableism That I don't Needthem and So Many people don't need them

66ccff: oh yeah, why do my essay when i can read an hour of garbage romo manga and feel slightly less bad during that time and then hate myself more

___: 

So I Can do it cuz I'm like Everyone Else and not like Those "crazy" people Rifp

66ccff: 

man i don't wanna encourage meds if your side effects r bad but honestly how did i get the fuck through high school other than triggering intense anxiety about all assignments

like... i was so nonfunctional i shouldn't have even been in school

.....

66ccff: 

all accessibility problems are solvable humans are so bad

___: caring ? About others ? What a concept 66ccff: except sometimes they are good but that is definitely not me

___: 

Me

Ok I try to overcompensate w good to make up for inherent badness THANKS RELIGION

66ccff: 

the US is like: here's a pricetag for your life pay up

___: AAAA

66ccff: 

yeah i can see how christainity wouldn't help there w/ the "original sin" and stuff that doesn't quite exist in other abrahamic religions iirc judaism doesn't even have hell

___:  it's really weird

66ccff: 

i'm guessing its bc of jesus like.... y'all binches killed him so now this is life - christainity

___: 

Like. Christianity makes the most sense to me probably cuz I grew up w it but fuck Man

66ccff:  o yeah i grew up w/ some christianity too ___: It's FUCKED!!!!!! 66ccff:  i actually have agoraphobia issues w/ going inside of churches ___: Oh same 66ccff:  :^) ___: I'm actually fairly anti-church just because the current state of them is very bsd 66ccff:  oh yeah

....

66ccff: 

how can someone like me, who is literally not deserving of life, raise someone else

scrumbles

___:

Me Hdjehdsk

66ccff:  ___ we are so fucked ___: 

It's true Life is fucked We, are fucked

66ccff: existence is violence

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hi i was tagged by @frankcastlcs​ to do a meme thing! it reminds me of the livejournal days... i lov it. also under a readmore bc i got wordy!

Rules: Always post the rules, tag 11 people, tell the person who tagged you that you answered their questions. 

1. What’s your favourite flower?

im allergic to a lot of flowers so! i like plants im not allergic to, like succulents and cacti! being cheesy tho, i like lilies and roses (my sisters name is lillie rose lol)

2. How many languages can you speak

english is my first language, but as i’ve lived about five miles from the us/mexico border my whole life i also have a pretty good grasp of spanish, tho i am much better at understanding spanish than speaking it. i also took arabic my first year of college, but i havent kept it up (although i keep say i am going to brush up hghg) and so i understand maybe. one or two of every ten words. i also have a very minor knowledge of german, as my mom’s grandparents spoke it and my mom goes off in german sometime. very very minor. i lvoe languages tho and i am fasinated w them and want to learn as many as i can!

3. What time do you usually go to sleep at?

if i am not at work (i generally work closing) i get ready for bed around 9 pm, and go to bed at ten. if i work, i generally get off at 10 or 11 at night so most of the time i fall asleep around 11 or 12. ive had some trouble sleeping lately too so. oog.

4. What movie do you wish you could experience again for the first time?

dark city. its my favorite movie and i found it by accident. my mom got it from the library and we were getting ready for a family friends quince and i put it on bc the cover art looked bad but. it turned out to be so good. please watch dark city. also star trek iv the voyage home i lvoe my whales

5. Where in the world would you like to live?

im happy here in san diego! i honestly cant see myself living anywhere else! plus i live in a very stragitic voting district and i need my vote to count

6. Do you like horror movies?

sorta? theyre ok i guess but i dont go outta my way to watch em

7. What is your favourite season?

i live in san diego we have one season more or less. sunny san diego. i like fall tho bc of colors and aesthetic and i love salted caramel and fall equals salted caramel

8. What are you looking forward to right now?

im gonna go to fanime with some pals in may! while one of them lives by me and i see pretty often ive only met one of the others once and the third its gonna be the first time irl! im excited bc im really close w these ppl and while im not too big on cons in generally i cant wait to be around my friends!

9. Do you believe in aliens?

yes

10. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?

uh. idk. pyrokensis maybe

11. What’s you biggest pet peeve?

people who dont use turn signals, also when ppl act like its the cashiers fault that the sale is in multiples of 2 or 3 or 4 and they didnt realize.

i tag: @congestex, @burekbabe, @pochx, @narumyia, @fwankcastles, @gayflirt, @gayjorkira, @coffeebisexual, @firstheartbreak, @ladycapulet, and @shitheadgod

here are my questions!

one. if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?

two. how do you relate to ethnicity? how does it shape you into you?

three. inside or outdoors?

four. whats your hogwarts house?

five. could you ever be a hermit? 

six. what is the most comforting thing at night for you? 

seven. what is the most charming thing in others to you?

eight. how do you see yourself when ur an eldery person?

nine. whats your favorite fact about yourself?

ten. how do you look right now?

eleven. how do you deal with unrequited feelings?